That happens sometimes, though, and if I'm sharing the highs and lows of my writing journey, I have to claim them both. I spent my word count on work writing. While I'm getting paid to write, so it's not a total loss, I feel like I'm helping other people fulfill their goals while mine fall to the side. There's a constant struggle to devote as much time to my writing as other people's writing. I have this strange compulsion to fill my face with food. Yeah, yeah. It's fuel for the body. I'm still racking up a word count for these other people! It's hard to give my writing equal weight and time when it barely makes me any money.
It's clearly not about the money since I still write fiction when it can barely pay for my Internet costs each month. Many people work while writing. I'd have to say that most people write for pleasure while working jobs they hate or barely like. My problem is that both my fiction writing, job writing, and blog writing feel the same. My fingers are flying across the keys all day long. Okay, sometimes they're struggling and fumbling across the keys, but the motion is the same. After writing all day for pennies, I need a different activity, too.
These are not excuses or whines about the state of my poor fingers and shoulders. It's an acknowledgement that sometimes it's hard, and maybe I should stop giving myself these huge goals. They might be a set up for failure.
I'm still determined to do 25k words per week. My word count since last Friday was 5318. Pretty far off the goal. Friday through Sunday are my big writing days, so I have a marathon of writing planned in the days ahead. No work writing. It'll entirely be for pleasure, though the word pleasure might be stretching things a little. Writing is not a spa treatment with wine and chocolate, but there's immense satisfaction after a productive day. Something I never feel when I'm fulfilling the goals and word counts of clients.
|That upper line is where I'm supposed to be.|
Anyone in the same boat where they give themselves almost impossible goals and are disappointed when the goals aren't met?